Hey ladies!
So, It has been about a month since I have written. Wow, time sure does fly by! I want to share with you a few things that God has been doing in my life and also a few things that He has been challenging me on. Being willing to let go before you receive...refusing to give attention to what does not deserve your attention...and being honest even when you are not specifically asked, knowing that you will not look your best. I hope this encourages and empowers you.
Okay, first is this idea of letting go before you receive. God has challenged me on this before in the past but recently this has come up in an area of my life that is so close to my heart. This request I felt God speaking to my heart about actually came up in the same area on three different occasions. Each time, I saw this image of Abraham letting go of his son and watching his walk up a hill, feeling pain that he would have to say goodbye. Each time I saw this image I felt God challenging me to literally say to him, "God I'm okay with your will and am willing to let this go if that is what you desire." You know, it wasn't that I thought I was necessarily going to loose that desire in my life, but more that I felt God challenging my faith to see if I would confess with my mouth that I was okay and would trust him, even if I was sad or disappointed. The Bible talks about how out of the heart the mouth speaks...the things we proclaim in our hearts often need to be verbalized to assure our faith. Its not that God needs our assurance, but more so that He wants to see us holding onto Him alone.
The next thing I want to share with you is more of a question. Are there things or people in your life that you are giving attention to that are not lined up with God's priority for your life right now? Why do we entertain these ideas or in some cases, individuals. Maybe, we feel bad. Maybe, we do not know how to say 'NO'. Maybe, we think things will turn out differently. Maybe, we are trying to be kind. I want to share a personal story with you. A little over a month ago I shared with a man, I am now in a relationship with, a story about some pain I had experienced from a man in my past. I was open and honest, but also a little afraid. You see, I've always been the type to push myself, even in fear. Some might think, "Wow, she's super brave," but the truth is I'm just stubborn and refuse to be pushed around by a little fear. Well, that night after having that conversation I had a dream. There was no sound in my dream and the only thing I saw was this beautiful female figure suspended on one side of a line. On the opposite side of that line was this image of a person who was so honest and intentional. I woke up and knew instantly, that if I did not try with all of my heart I would loose my chance. I felt this assurance that I would not experience the same sort of pain that I had before.
Ironically, about 10 minutes later I was getting ready and received a text message from the very person who had caused all that pain well over a year ago. It read, "I miss you." Ladies, you know how certain words strike your heart....well, a year ago that text would have caused me to rethink everything I was getting ready to embark on. Yet, in that moment I looked in the mirror and literally said out loud, "You are going to cross that line and never look back and thought....Satan will have no room to cause doubt in my future love [whomever God deems]. I deleted that message and carried on. You see ladies, sometimes the very best thing you can do for yourself is to trust God just enough. It's not a matter of what you see in the physical but what you are believing in faith....beyond that line of security or fear.
One last thing that is on my heart today that I want to share with you is what real honesty looks like. Each of us has at least one area of our life that is muddled, or flawed. [to be continued....something just came up that needs my immediate attention.]
Love you ladies
Andrea
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